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same as per usual.�

Today's question: "What would you do with your life today if you weren't afraid of failure?"

I don't know about my whole life but as I think about the short term, I have hope that I am doing it now.

I'm getting somewhere with my father after all these years. If I can continue without fear of failure I believe I will have everything I've ever wanted.

I�want to paint my face and pretend Im someone else. Sometimes I�get so fed up, that I dont even want to look at my self. The people with problems their always so mad, I�dont want them to think that Im always complaining all the time. And i hate the way you look at me I have to say, I�wish I couls start over...Oh, yeah Im slowly falling apart. I wish you could take a walk in my shoes for a step, and you might think its easy being me. Yeah just stand still, look pretty.� Sometimes I�find myself shaking in the middle of the night. And then it hits me, and I cant even believe that this is my life....� The people with problems their always so mad, I�dont want them to think that Im always complaining all the time. And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouth. Im not storng enough to deal with it.� Oh, yeah Im slowly falling apart. I wish you could take a walk in my shoes for a step, and you might think its easy being me. Yeah just stand still, look pretty. Oh, yeah Im slowly falling apart. I wish you could take a walk in my shoes for a step, and you might think its easy being me. Yeah just stand still, look pretty.

�I love that song! its called: Stand still, look pretty. By: The Wreckers.

I dont really have much to write about at the moment maybe later...

Sportygirl15

Strength workout.� Still struggling through the pushups.

Second consecutive day of no biking due to rain.

Lil Zay

***We’ve known lots of pleasure

We’ve known lots of pain

We’ve walked in the sunshine

We’ve walked in the rain

��������� My death was sudden like a thief in the night

����������I was loyal to my friends never to give up the fight

���������Please let me stay in your heart

������� That way we will never part

������� There will be times you will miss me and I hope you do but keep me in your heart, I’ll be counting on you!

������� I’ll be the stars in the sky

������� The chill in the air

������� Everywhere you look I’ll be there

������� I got a new color now

������ It aint red or blue

������ It’s the color of the driven snow and to it I’m true

������ There is no heaven for a G or a gangsters paradise

������ I’ve got a new friend now in Jesus Christ

��� �� I’ve got a new walk

���� � I’ve got a new talk

��� � I’ve got a new way

����� I’m at peace now, I’m a new Lil Zay***

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sooooo im bored as always. i didnt really so shit today except skool...but aint nuthin special go down there. i went to sleep after i got home cuz my job called my fone and trynna get me to come to work...yea i wasnt fellin that so i defintely did not answer. i amd not da kinda person to put in no extra hours...da job is aiight but i aint comin in if i aint got to if ya no wut i mean. when i woke up i went to barns and noble and got a couple books....da first one is kinda nasty too lol

oh and i cant believe i failed my drivin test on da last mutha fuckin question! i was mad as hell! i mean i didnt really study for it but most of it was common sense...da question dat failed me was about a fuckin motorcycle! wtf dat gots to do wit me? my ass aint gettin on no damn motorcycle. dat made me even more mad! i felt like tearin dat computer up! now my ass gotta wait fifteen dayz to take anotha 1! what kinda shit iz dat?

but let me end dis b$ i get mad all ova agian lol...DEUCES!

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4/14/09 11:42

Did you ever know,

the traggic tale,

of love and sorrow?

Could you ever see a different side of her?

Could you ever feel,

pain,

as it began to dance away the days?

Or could you ever believe,

in a different side of life?

A different way?

Maybe I am wrong.

Maybe it is true.

I USED ME TO GET YOU!!!

Maybe it's over,

&& Maybe I'm not sorry.

Maybe I miss you,

maybe i don't,

I just can't,

I won't!!

LISTEN TO THE TRAGGIC TALE OF LOVE AND SORROW!!